Pulling another disappearing act

To those few people who still reads my blog, I’m sorry for yet another long absence. I was offered a 6-month contract job back in May and I’m now into the fourth month of my contract. The chances of me getting converted to a permanent employee is rather high but to be honest I’m not sure if I’m going to accept the permanent role. After three months in my current job, I can affirm that there’s no such thing as a perfect job in this world.

My new boss is a really nice person to work for and I now work in a team with three other colleagues. For those who know me, this is important to me as I didn’t have that kind of support in my previous job. I like the casual environment and fun culture that’s associated with the company. It’s also one of the few companies that I’ve always wanted to join. So what’s holding me back from committing myself to the role you ask?

The job itself.

Long story short, I’m now responsible for staffing and I have to say I’m not comfortable in this role at all. I have no problems dealing with candidates and new hires but the one thing I can’t do is to build rapport with the hiring managers. It’s just not in me to be out mingling and talking with people. I don’t like to be out at the front line ninety percent of the time. I don’t like having to act interested in front of people I don’t really care about. I like to be safely ensconced in my cubicle working in front of the computer without being disturbed. I’m perfectly capable of interacting with people but I don’t like to be out chatting with people all the time. Do I make sense?

The thought of having to partner the hiring managers and building a relationship with them stresses me up. It’s not something that I enjoy doing at all. I’m aware that this whole thing is ironic because I now work in great team but the role is not suitable for me. Life would be perfect if I’m in charge of a different portfolio instead of recruitment.

Moving on to a lighter note – I’ll be traveling to Seoul with the Val, Shir and Koreen in three weeks’ time. It’s going to be my first trip to South Korea and I’m really looking forward to it. I’m tempted to say I’ll do a trip summary when I’m back but well you know me. So yeah, we’ll see how it goes.