Light at the end of the tunnel

Hello I’m back. So much for saying I intend to write more regularly in one of my posts last year. Yes, last year. It’s been THAT long.

Anyway, I thought I’ll just share that I’m leaving my job at the end of May. Even though I don’t relish the idea of being unemployed again, I’m really glad that I can finally bid goodbye to my job. It’s been a difficult and challenging period for me but I’ve learned a lot from the people and my job there. And I don’t mean that in an entirely positive context.

There are a few people I wish I’d never met but I also got to know a couple of genuine and helpful people who made my days at work a little less miserable. Genuine and helpful being the key words here. I’ve worked in so many companies before and I’ve got to say this is one of the most difficult environment I’ve ever worked in. Zero cooperation and communication within the team. Till today I’m still unable to adapt to and don’t agree with the style of the team. This is not the type of team that I want to work for.

I also proved to myself that recruitment is not something that I enjoy or can do well. I simply don’t have the aptitude to be in this role. I found myself asking this question a lot over the past year – Can one perform well in his/her job if he/she doesn’t have the passion for it? I don’t have an answer to this but I strongly believe I’ve carried out my duties and responsibilities to the best of my ability. I don’t ask for applause or commendation but at least show some appreciation instead of highlighting my faults at every opportunity. Yes, I’m fully aware that I’m not good enough but shouldn’t you be more encouraging, instead of constantly beating your teammates down? I just don’t understand.

I came across the quote below on Pinterest the other day and it perfectly sums up how I feel towards the whole situation.

difficult people

I guess I’ll have to thank them for showing me how unforgiving and fake one can be. I’ll never be able to make myself do that to others. Maybe that’s exactly why I can’t survive in that environment. Oh well, it doesn’t matter anymore. I’m just damn relieved that it’ll be over for me soon. Can’t wait for May to come.

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