Work – Devilishly Red

Start of yet another new chapter

I’m back again after yet another long hiatus. It’s scary how time flies and I can’t quite believe that we’re already into the first week of October.

In my last post, I mentioned that things were going downhill fast for me on the job front. Quite unfortunately, things didn’t get better since my last update back in December. I continued to struggle with my work and working till late into the night on my working days became a norm. I hated my job and everyday was a dread. I lost all motivation at work and I felt so miserable and unhappy all the time. To make matters worse, my boss decided to throw in the towel too and tendered her resignation. When she told me about her resignation, I was sad but at the same time happy for her. I know she was burnt out as well and could totally understand why she made that decision. This is why I made the same decision too. I didn’t want to be around after she has left and most importantly, the misery was taking a toll on me and I really needed to get out of that toxic situation.

And so I did. I’m happy to share that I’ve since found a new job and will be starting next week. I’m extremely thankful that things fell into place for me at the right time and I hope things will continue to work out smoothly for me for the rest of 2021.

I’m also grateful to the folks who have encouraged me and kept me sane over the past few months. I’d like to thank them for putting up with my constant rants and offering their invaluable advice and moral support. I wouldn’t have survived the miserable days without these awesome people! 😀

Protected: My exchange with an ex-colleague

Light at the end of the tunnel

Hello I’m back. So much for saying I intend to write more regularly in one of my posts last year. Yes, last year. It’s been THAT long.

Anyway, I thought I’ll just share that I’m leaving my job at the end of May. Even though I don’t relish the idea of being unemployed again, I’m really glad that I can finally bid goodbye to my job. It’s been a difficult and challenging period for me but I’ve learned a lot from the people and my job there. And I don’t mean that in an entirely positive context.

There are a few people I wish I’d never met but I also got to know a couple of genuine and helpful people who made my days at work a little less miserable. Genuine and helpful being the key words here. I’ve worked in so many companies before and I’ve got to say this is one of the most difficult environment I’ve ever worked in. Zero cooperation and communication within the team. Till today I’m still unable to adapt to and don’t agree with the style of the team. This is not the type of team that I want to work for.

I also proved to myself that recruitment is not something that I enjoy or can do well. I simply don’t have the aptitude to be in this role. I found myself asking this question a lot over the past year – Can one perform well in his/her job if he/she doesn’t have the passion for it? I don’t have an answer to this but I strongly believe I’ve carried out my duties and responsibilities to the best of my ability. I don’t ask for applause or commendation but at least show some appreciation instead of highlighting my faults at every opportunity. Yes, I’m fully aware that I’m not good enough but shouldn’t you be more encouraging, instead of constantly beating your teammates down? I just don’t understand.

I came across the quote below on Pinterest the other day and it perfectly sums up how I feel towards the whole situation.

I guess I’ll have to thank them for showing me how unforgiving and fake one can be. I’ll never be able to make myself do that to others. Maybe that’s exactly why I can’t survive in that environment. Oh well, it doesn’t matter anymore. I’m just damn relieved that it’ll be over for me soon. Can’t wait for May to come.